It is proven that communication is a solid foundation for any form of relationship.
Affection is a very close second.
I am finally accepting the knowledge that this desire of mine is not mere selfish desire at all.
There is also significant amount of evidence that the lack of touch may cause;
Depression, insomnia, violent tendencies, memory deficits, high blood pressure, etc...
So, I suppose the infamous pun, "You really need to get laid" may indeed be a merited fact.
So now that's established and understood,
I must say that I love my solitude.
Isolation and solitude are different states of being and we chose them for very different reasons.
One is healthy one is clearly not.
As much as I enjoy my solitude I still want contact with another.
I love the body mannerisms, the facial expressions and the eye contact.
The kind that lingers and the kind that nervously strays.
Those things communicate so much more then the spoken word.
With E-mails, text messaging, Facebook, Twitter and Instagram at our fingertips.
We may think...
"Why bother with the effort and the risk?"
But then we would never know if that "LOL" received was a slight smirk, a smile that spreads and reaches the eyes, or if they are in fact laughing out loud.
My skull upon a warm chest.
A kiss that feels like a homecoming.
This is what I have come up with upon approximately 15 years of trial and error and much contemplation and this list is ongoing.
I need to know that they float near my plane of existence and enjoy the view.
I want someone...
as well as I do.
Someone with that memory, who now knows humility and has reverence for those shadows.
Who doesn't cower in the face of feminine power.
I want someone who knows, who believes, that absolutely everything is in it's perfect time and place.
For reasons even the greatest of minds can only deliberate indefinitely.